Living Without You
Yong Jun Hyung (BEAST)
Kim HyunA (4MINUTE)
Goo Hara (KARA)I walked down the stairs as I am going to buy something from the convenience shop nearby. It is about 3 kilometres away from my house. Although it is a bit far but I just walk to it as I am taking it as an exercise. I walked along the florist, tailor shop, and a café. Oh what did I just saw? Is that … HyunA? I walked nearer to get the best view of her. Oh damn! What is she doing? Who is that guy?! That moment, I really felt like I am going to explode of madness. What is all this. She always saying I am having an affair with another women – although it is totally not true! How can I’m having an affair with another women while I’m just hanging out in my house for the whole day, only went out if got something to buy. So what now, she said it to me because she is the one who did that?
Before I enter the café and launch my fist to the guy’s face, I’d better walk away from there – pretends as nothing happened. With all the things I saw, I had already forgot what did I wanted to buy! Ahh, what is it…. I sighed. I waited for almost 15 minutes, still thinking what are the things that I’m going to buy. Ah yes! Jeongmal gumawo, the passers-by ahjumma! I need to buy a pain killer for Kevin, and maybe a bottle of coke for me!
I walked back to my house. For the second time, I would not turn my head towards the café anymore. As I entered my room, I laid my body down on the bed. I keep thinking about what I saw. Eottokae! I just wanted to forget it! A few minutes later, I fell asleep.
As I woke up from my sleep, as usual, I looked on my handphone to see for any missed calls or message. On the screen was written ‘8 missed calls from HyunA’. So what now? Still searching for me? I threw my handphone on the bed then I went to the kitchen to get something refreshing.
That night, I was sitting on my sofa while watching television and eating some snacks. “Ttok! Ttok! Ttok!” Someone had knocked the door. I wonder who is it, the ones who disrupt my happiness on resting. If I can, I would had just open the door from there but it is something impossible in this reality world. With a pair of my lazy legs, I walked to the door to open it. I was stunned. It was HyunA, standing with such an evilish face. “Err…what’s wrong with you HyunA-ah? With that face…you stare at me like that. Ah, and why are you here? Why didn’t you tell me that you wanted to come here?” I asked her such a lot of questions calmly. “Oppa! How can I tell you when you didn’t picked your phone up?” Oh! She shouted at me. I took my handphone out from the pocket, “Eh? It is running out of battery. Mianhae…I forgot to charge it.” Suddenly she hit me with her handbag.
I lost my temper so I shouted at her, “Yah! You were having an affair with another guy out there, then came here shouted and hit me with your handbag. What are you huh? CRAZY WOMAN! Let’s break up now! You are driving me crazy! I can’t stand with you anymore! Don’t ever search for me again!” Then I close the door, “Baanggggg!” I still can hear HyunA’s voice shouting outside but who cares? That moment, I was really like the craziest guy on earth.
Before I close my eyes, i thought about the break up moments with HyunA. I smiled alone. I don’t know but I felt more comfortable like this, without any burden on my shoulder anymore. When I flashback the moments we were still together, everyday I missed her like crazy when I didn’t saw her for a day. I always scared to face the ‘tomorrow’ without her. It was so funny. How can I fall in love with a girl like that. I sighed. Now I am single. So what? I’m famous! I still got a lot of girls out there to be my new girlfriend. HyunA, I hope you are happy living without me, and please be happy searching a new love to be my replacement . Don’t think about me anymore because I’m totally happy right now! In a short while, you perfectly broke my heart down.
Day by day had passed. Her face and voice had slowly disappeared from my mind. Now I had found a new girlfriend, Hara! She is more suit to me more than HyunA. Hara is an understanding girl. She never hurt me like you does, HyunA! Everyday Hara give me happiness but HyunA, everyday she makes my life miserable!
As I hoped, she really had a happy life without me too, as I does! She is currently dating a guy, an another guy from who I saw on the day our relationship was broken up. Seems that flirting a guy is really her charm. No wonder, she is really a sexy girl.
One day, I was walking around in the shopping mall with Hara. In coincidence, we met HyunA. She was clinging her hand on a guy’s arm. She smiled and me but I didn’t reply the smile. Not as I expected, she greeted me, “Annyeong, JunHyung op….Ah~” She did stopped at half of the word ‘oppa’. Yes, that’s good. Don’t finish that word or my hand will land on your cheeks! “Ige nuguya? Neoui yeochin?” She asked me while pointing to Hara with her eyes. “Yae,” I answered. Then she gave me a bitter smile. “Ah, kaja!” Then she walked away and didn’t even greeted goodbye to me. Do I care? No, absolutely not!
While walking, “Oppa-ah, who is that girl?” Hara asked me about Hyuna. “Ah? She is not important, no need to know.” I smiled. “Okay then.”
“Ringggg! Ringggg!” My handphone rang. The caller name is ‘HyunA’. It’s been a long time she didn’t gave me a call. Why so suddenly. I don’t know why but I really picked the phone up.
“Yeoboseyo?”
“Hmm so you had got a new girlfriend. Are you happy right now?”
“Of course I am. At last I can get out of my miserable life without you.”
“Be careful. She might give you a more miserable life than I did.”
“You are jealous, didn’t you? I don’t care if a jealous from you give the meaning of love though.”
“No I didn’t. Maybe you did.”
“Of course I didn’t. For your information, in the period of me living without you, your face and voice are already all faded away from my mind. It is annoying when sometimes your face popped-out in my mind. Our meeting today was really a bad luck for me.”
“Okay then! Fine!”
She disconnected the line. I know she was mad with my words. But it is no more my problems. I’m looking forward to Hara right now. Suddenly it popped-out of my mind of imaginating Hara is doing the same thing as HyunA did. Ah! I hope that wouldn’t never happen.
It has been 3 months I filled my empty heart with Hara’s love. Today I noticed a change on Hara. She started to ignore me. The amount of calls from her everyday has been decreased. The amount of calls from me that she didn’t picked up are then increasing. What had happened?!
Today we had a date again after 2 weeks we didn’t do that. We had a dinner in a Chinese cuisine restaurant. We took a seat at the corner of the building. While we were eating, Hara suddenly woke up from her seat and said, “Oppa, I want to go to the washroom. Excuse me.” I nodded. She left her phone on the table. I don’t know why but I feel there is something hidden in the phone. I took the phone to take a look on it. The wallpaper…what the fish! Who is the god creature beside her? For sure it is not me and as I were told, she didn’t have any male siblings. Without hesitation, I checked her inbox. Wah! There was a lot of the name ‘Lee Joon’. Who is that fellow huh?
Sometimes I glanced at the ladies’ washroom door, oh! She is coming. I put the phone back to its initial place quickly. I maybe looked calm and relax through my face but who knows, it is burning deep in my heart. Don’t tell me that is it happening again! Arghhhh!! I can’t stand anymore.
“Hara yah, can I ask you something?”
“Ah yae?”
“Can I know, who is the person named Lee Joon? I guess you know him, huh?”
Her face is currently showing that she is in nervous situation. She was acting calm but failed!
“Ah? Wae? He is my friend, why?”
“Jeongmal yo? FRIEND or BOYFRIEND?”
“Friend. Why are you so weird today?”
“You are saying I’m weird today? So how is with you? Why are you behaving weird in these 2 weeks? You have someone else didn’t you? Someone named LEE JOON.”
I mentioned the name Lee Joon in a bit louder voice and longer. She was shocked.
“Ah, oppa! What are you talking about?”
“Hmm? So what is the meaning of the words ‘saranghae’ and ‘jagiya’ in your inbox? Ah yes, and who is the unlucky guy beside you in your wallpaper picture?”
“Oppa! What did you do with my phone?!”
“Ohh, so you’re mad? What? You think I didn’t mad when you have someone else in your heart besides me? Am I not perfect enough for you? Huh?! Fine! Let’s break up here!”
I woke up and left Hara alone. I walked along the Han River. The water really gives me calmness. So this is what HyunA told me that day, Hara might do the same thing or even worse to me. It really had became reality! Oh, I’m depressed! I don’t have any strength to walk anymore. I sat there while looking to the river. “Oh JunHyung, did you borned to be an unlucky guy?” I monolog.
The next day, I woke up late. It is because of the stress given by Hara last night. Ah I really did want to forget everything. Ah, headache! The ache is even worse when I think about Hara. I really don’t have the strength to bring myself to the doctor. Just let the time heal all. Anyway, Hara, truthfully I said, I feel more than better without you.
After a few years being a trainee, at last I debuted in a boy band named Xing but I ended up of being a singer in a boy band named B2ST. I am the rapper. At first we were not really famous. But as we keep hardworking, now B2ST is well-known around the world and became a top K-POP band. Also for myself, I became more famous and more good-looking as the time passed. I also had been called as a fashionista in B2ST! As we had made a lot of singles, mini-albums and music videos, we were also had held a lot of showcases, concerts and fan-meeting events.
Now, I am happy living with my fellow members, DooJoon, HyunSeung, YoSeob, GiKwang and DongWoon. It is more fun living without a girlfriend! Since the time I broke up with Hara, I learned to not easily fall in love. Truthfully, facing 2 broken relationships, there is a scar remaining in my heart but it’s not that big. From now on, I’m going to take care of my heart from being hurt by a love knife.
[BEHIND THE SCENES]
“Tutt…Tutt…” A piece of message came into my inbox. The sender is…Hara?
“Annyeong JunHyung oppa! Orenmanida yo! You are a top star now. You are famous in the whole Korea. You must be already forgot me, right?”
Before I reply to the message, “Ringgg! Ringgg!” There was someone calling me. It was…HyunA?
“Yeoboseyo?”
“Annyeong JunHyung oppa! Wah, you are famous now! Maybe you still hate me for everything that I had done to you. Jeongmal mianhae yo! What about we become friends?”
I’m speechless. Without saying anything, I disconnected the line. Firstly, Hara, then, HyunA. Ah! What are with these girls? Are they going to take an advantage by trying to be close to me. Never! I will never be fooled by any girl anymore. Yeah! This is me, Yong Jun Hyung or also known as JOKER , will never lose to girls!
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